Heh:)

My sweet pea is going to Snow Doubt :)

Oh yea...

Sweet Pea = Carolyn
She is "sweet pea" because she is my friend! She is lovable and loving. She is true to her word and honest. She is pretty and funny. She is sweet! And! She kind of looks like a pea...i dont know...her nickname is "peanut" ...so "pea" is like half. She is still sweet though. Thats why she is Sweet Pea.

Bye.

If anyone speaks, he should do it as one speaking the very words of God

I think i just need to keep setting goals for myself. so, in approximately an hour, i will be finished with all of my college composition homework....is that possible? ucky. i dont think it is. okay. but i can do it. so i will.

i miss my sister. i want to call her. but she makes me talk about college...and then i dont want to talk to her. its like whenever i talk to her, there needs to be some progress on my college stuff...but there never is progress. i really miss her though. she is absolutely great. i think everyone should have an older sister.

sigh. alright. an hour. 1 hour.

- me!

Oh yea. That verse is 1 Peter 4:1 - we talked about it in church today. the verse stuck to me.

Mm

Oh, I dont know...

This is good.

I have not been updating as much, but instead, I have been doing my homework and sleeping. Sleeping can be a bad thing...when you get too much...I can go either way. It's bad to sleep too much because then you waste time on something that really isn't benefiting you. However, is it possible to sleep too much when you are in high school? I would actually say yes. There, we have identified my thoughts on sleeping. I shouldnt sleep so much.

:( That makes me sad.

So! Yes, I have been doing my homework. And! We, members of the Thespian Society, received our scripts. How fun.

Things are busy. I hate how when you are busy, you lose touch with people. I wish I could revolve my life around people and not responsibilities. I guess people sometimes turn into responsibilities though. I realize that I'm all over the place...this is a "raw" post.

Picture time: Christmas 2004...i ruined it.

Hi's

The sun's out; I wish I could go out. Today, however, I am supposed to do college stuff all day.

My Sweet Pea is home...that is fun too. I really want to go see her. Poop.

There are a lot of issues all of a sudden that are popping into my head. First off, I guess there is always the issue of college.

Secondly, other people's posts got me thinking. I'm bad at loving people...and I'm good at making myself look kind. I feel like often I say things that basically give people a chance to have pity on me. I dont know...most often, it's on accident, but I think sometimes I use that as an advantage to make people see me as really nice. I realize that "being nice" isnt the most important quality a person can have, because sometimes I'm really not that nice. I wish I knew how to explain myself TO myself. Am I really supposed to know? And are we all supposed to love everyone...for example, is that what God means when he tells us to love one another?

Hm, yea.

Dutch Apple Pie

I come home so tired these days...from school, that is. I remember that happening before only in my freshman year when I was actually trying to apply myself in school. So, I suppose its a good thing, but all I want to do is get in my bed and be warm. Maybe I should work out, I dont know. I dont really like working out.

I've decided that this semester is going to be a good one, both spiritually and academically. I miss spending time with my God. That is hard; trying to tell yourself that you will be good spiritually, when in reality...I cant ever be good. Its like something I just want to have but cannot because it takes constant tenacity; more than just a couple days. So, I guess I will say that I will strive to be holy. I feel like these are all just words. I think I have difficulty sharing my relationship with God because I'm a little ashamed of what I've put into it. Actually more than a little. Okay... that happens. I'm going to fix it now.

:)

Yeaaaaaaaaaaaaa!

Ho-hum

extremely disappointed with saturday night live...i'm glad that i havent kept up with it. i think its stinky...oh well.

i'm okay these days, how are you?

i dont think the new year has set in. i feel like i'm just waiting for something... i know what it is.

but i'm out.

i should go into detail...i will, one day...i promise.