Dutch Apple Pie

I come home so tired these days...from school, that is. I remember that happening before only in my freshman year when I was actually trying to apply myself in school. So, I suppose its a good thing, but all I want to do is get in my bed and be warm. Maybe I should work out, I dont know. I dont really like working out.

I've decided that this semester is going to be a good one, both spiritually and academically. I miss spending time with my God. That is hard; trying to tell yourself that you will be good spiritually, when in reality...I cant ever be good. Its like something I just want to have but cannot because it takes constant tenacity; more than just a couple days. So, I guess I will say that I will strive to be holy. I feel like these are all just words. I think I have difficulty sharing my relationship with God because I'm a little ashamed of what I've put into it. Actually more than a little. Okay... that happens. I'm going to fix it now.