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i cant bring myself to pack.

so i came online...again. for the third time tonight and then i stumbled upon this...i remember reading it days ago...and now i'm thinking a lot about it.

anyhow...here "it" is:

"procrastination is our best attempt at immortality, how we behave as if there is no end to our time, you know?"

- g.j. gibson (Gibson is a well known author and songwriter. She was the Pulitzer Prize winner for Children's Horrific Literature in 1947. The prize-winning novel, The Bloody Werewolf Child?, sold millions of copies. To this day, she has not released anything else, but has been working fervently in secret with her killer robots...at night.)

It's not the pale moon that excites me...

You know what I just realized? Right now, it's sunday night. I remember dreading sunday nights and I'm pretty sure I used to post about it because of how much it stunk that I had to finish homework and go to school the next day.

What a bad feeling. Do your homework early...that is what I suggest. And come to think of it. It is 10:22pm and I probably wouldn't have even starting doing my homework yet.

Anyways, I am in happy spirits. I think it's because of being around happy kids and singing happy songs earlier tonight. What fun, and at the same time, what chaos.

So. I'm going to go, I think. But, goodnight everyone...

It's nice to relax(even though I'm pretty antsy about something right now)...so make sure you make time for that. And be happy that there is no school tomorrow!!!!!

Oh yeah, and Liam is not a show monkey....

just throwing that out there to remind myself.

Gaby makes me smile a lot.

He is wonderful.

So, for new things. Kierstin and Gaby did wonderful things for Carolyn and I. They are such special people.

Carolyn and I arrived at the Nall's abode near 7:35pm...and there, we found a clue...with quite possibly the saddest picture Carolyn and I had ever seen taped to it. And from there we were led to 3 other places only to find Kier and Gabriela at Tropical Smoothie Cafe where we purchased yummy treats. How fun. I am happy for friends. Um, I know Kierstin posted pictures, but I am going to post a few as well. I hope that's okay with you. Oh yea. and Gaby has a blog! Wait...but don't believe anything she says.


Gaby looks so sly...no, clever. Sly? Thats a good word.

Mmm. So, I took a picture without Kierstin knowing. She is quite cute with her smoothie.

Oh yeah:) Sweet pea looks so happy.

Oh, it's Roger! That's all I need to say.

I know you all are getting sick of me and my pictures. I can't help it. I just took out two pictures because I figured as much.

It's okay, I will save them for later.

Today I watched The Last Samurai. I like it very much.

I don't know what else to say. I post too much. So, bye.

Oh,

Katie K. did something really good for me today. She put her hand over my mouth and shut me up because she knew I was saying something I didnt want to say. I said it anyways. But it was good and I think I need her always :( I dont know why I do silly things and say silly things. It's depressing. I just need to really think before I speak. Not to stop myself from saying what I'm thinking, but to really think about what I'm saying and why I'm saying it...and frankly, why I even am going to speak.

Hm, okay, well on another note, C.S. Lewis and The Four Loves is going well. This part stood out so I thought I might share: "We may give our human loves (people that we love) the unconditional allegiance which we owe only to God. Then they become gods: then they become demons...For natural loves that are allowed to become gods do not remain loves. They are still called so, but can become in fact complicated forms of hatred."

That is just interesting. I mean...it may not be interesting to you and it's a little morbid. Um. I throw my love out there a lot and I say "I love you" so much to some people. And I do love them...but maybe it's getting to be too much where, for one, I say it so much that I hardly even realize the meaning of it, and also that it's taking the place of God...my heart belongs to him. I almost have to say that to reassure myself.

Okay, well I am off to go write more thank you cards from my graduation party that took place 2 weeks ago. I wish I had some candy. Somehow I feel as if that would keep me going. I like writing notes and cards but man, this is a lot and it's a little draining. Okay. Well. Goodnight:)

I almost lasted a week without posting.

Okay, I dont know what it is. I just feel so compelled to put him everywhere online.

Heh...

I'm sorry. Okay this will be my last post this week....

Apple Pie

What amazing gifts from God.

Goodnight. Sweet dreams.

Sigh...OKAY. This is for Troy.

Wait, I had to put that one up because...well, just look at it. Sweet.

Okay. Softball:

Thanks Troy, thanks.

All done. Troy: Those are the pictures I had wanted to show you...they aren't that great...but it will suffice for now. I gave in...I posted pictures of you.

Aruna, Liam, Katie and C.S Lewis

Today I bought a book: The Four Loves by C.S. Lewis and I'm excited to begin it...I have yet to finish other books, but I'm starting this one tonight anyway.

I was on a date with Katie Hoffman tonight, and she took me to the mallll and then to Barnes and Noble. I laughed and had fun:) I like that I get to go on dates with girls these days. I suppose that is silly and sounds a little wrong. But oh well, take it as you will.

There are so many books to read. I wonder if I will ever read even a fraction of them all. I've given up on reading before, but I think it's because of my outlook. I dont know...in highschool, I lost the enjoyment in reading when I had to read them (or thats what I said) and so I stopped reading for fun. That was dumb. I think it was just because I was lazy.

So, now I will read for gaining knowledge and hopefully I will just get enjoyment out of the fact that I'm trying to gain knowledge. I dont know - maybe that's a bad outlook too.

Okay and, starting today, I will stop doubting myself.

I couldn't help it. This picture is too wonderful.

"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It is not just in some of us; it is in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others. ~Marianne Williamson, A Return to Love: Reflections on the Principles of "A Course in Miracles," 1992 (commonly misattributed to Nelson Mandela, 1994 inauguration speech)"

I had to make sure to share this quote today but I didnt want to put it with the Liam post. This quote and Liam deserve their own posts. Maybe I'm just being weird. Okay well...see ya.

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