Oh,

Katie K. did something really good for me today. She put her hand over my mouth and shut me up because she knew I was saying something I didnt want to say. I said it anyways. But it was good and I think I need her always :( I dont know why I do silly things and say silly things. It's depressing. I just need to really think before I speak. Not to stop myself from saying what I'm thinking, but to really think about what I'm saying and why I'm saying it...and frankly, why I even am going to speak.

Hm, okay, well on another note, C.S. Lewis and The Four Loves is going well. This part stood out so I thought I might share: "We may give our human loves (people that we love) the unconditional allegiance which we owe only to God. Then they become gods: then they become demons...For natural loves that are allowed to become gods do not remain loves. They are still called so, but can become in fact complicated forms of hatred."

That is just interesting. I mean...it may not be interesting to you and it's a little morbid. Um. I throw my love out there a lot and I say "I love you" so much to some people. And I do love them...but maybe it's getting to be too much where, for one, I say it so much that I hardly even realize the meaning of it, and also that it's taking the place of God...my heart belongs to him. I almost have to say that to reassure myself.

Okay, well I am off to go write more thank you cards from my graduation party that took place 2 weeks ago. I wish I had some candy. Somehow I feel as if that would keep me going. I like writing notes and cards but man, this is a lot and it's a little draining. Okay. Well. Goodnight:)

I almost lasted a week without posting.

Okay, I dont know what it is. I just feel so compelled to put him everywhere online.